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I have not been active here for a very long time, as is obvious from taking a look at my account. At some points I have seemed to even abandon it, but I still wish to use it. I have made a lot of friends here, some of which I lost contact with due to this site being our only form of contact. I even let down some friends with my absence, which was partly because of my depression, but I should not have taken that responsibility in the first place knowing the risk. I will personally apologize to them later.

And yes, I suppose I have not talked about it here very much, but during my second year in high school I became depressed. It was a combination of stress about school, my future, and my home situation - the latter only getting worse until a couple of years back when me and my mom were both rid of a toxic, abusive family member.
My point is that for about seven years now I have battled with severe depression and anxiety, so I have not had as much energy to spare, even art-wise. Looking back to my early DA days when I could spend countless hours on drawing and be extremely productive compared to now, I miss those days so much. For more than one reason.

What I also wanted to talk about is a very specific flaw I had back then: I used to make rape jokes. It is as shameful to me as the fact that I am only trying to fix it now. I did grow out of it several years ago, but have never officially apologized for it and some old drawings bordering on implicit sexual assault were not deleted until I couple days ago. This has been on my mind before, but simply deleting them would have not been enough and I knew I would have to process this eventually. I am not proud that it took me this long to have the courage for that.
I won't lie that this isn't partly about making myself feel better and at peace with my past self, but I truly am sorry for everyone that had to witness it. I know I made many people uncomfortable, even though it was never directly expressed at me. Perhaps if I had been called out I would have fixed up my terrible behaviour sooner, but I might as well have tried to defend myself and my awful tastes. I was a fool who knew exactly what I was doing and yet I did it anyway.

I am sorry for everything wrong I did.

I am still in the process of deleting things but if you think I have missed something with troubling themes, I hope you can let me know and I encourage you to call me out on my future mistakes. I will do my best to be a better person while I clean up the last of my gallery and hopefully start filling it with better material. I cannot promise I can be very active or draw as often as before, but this place and the people I have met here mean a lot to me and I don't want to let it go yet.

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Sad nerd that draws comics and rly likes puppets. Call me DL

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I have not been active here for a very long time, as is obvious from taking a look at my account. At some points I have seemed to even abandon it, but I still wish to use it. I have made a lot of friends here, some of which I lost contact with due to this site being our only form of contact. I even let down some friends with my absence, which was partly because of my depression, but I should not have taken that responsibility in the first place knowing the risk. I will personally apologize to them later.

And yes, I suppose I have not talked about it here very much, but during my second year in high school I became depressed. It was a combination of stress about school, my future, and my home situation - the latter only getting worse until a couple of years back when me and my mom were both rid of a toxic, abusive family member.
My point is that for about seven years now I have battled with severe depression and anxiety, so I have not had as much energy to spare, even art-wise. Looking back to my early DA days when I could spend countless hours on drawing and be extremely productive compared to now, I miss those days so much. For more than one reason.

What I also wanted to talk about is a very specific flaw I had back then: I used to make rape jokes. It is as shameful to me as the fact that I am only trying to fix it now. I did grow out of it several years ago, but have never officially apologized for it and some old drawings bordering on implicit sexual assault were not deleted until I couple days ago. This has been on my mind before, but simply deleting them would have not been enough and I knew I would have to process this eventually. I am not proud that it took me this long to have the courage for that.
I won't lie that this isn't partly about making myself feel better and at peace with my past self, but I truly am sorry for everyone that had to witness it. I know I made many people uncomfortable, even though it was never directly expressed at me. Perhaps if I had been called out I would have fixed up my terrible behaviour sooner, but I might as well have tried to defend myself and my awful tastes. I was a fool who knew exactly what I was doing and yet I did it anyway.

I am sorry for everything wrong I did.

I am still in the process of deleting things but if you think I have missed something with troubling themes, I hope you can let me know and I encourage you to call me out on my future mistakes. I will do my best to be a better person while I clean up the last of my gallery and hopefully start filling it with better material. I cannot promise I can be very active or draw as often as before, but this place and the people I have met here mean a lot to me and I don't want to let it go yet.

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PinkPalletta Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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TheSamuraiWarrior Featured By Owner Edited Jul 6, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HugParty:iconsuperheroglompplz:
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kozispoon Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2016  Student General Artist
Hay hay! If you're on the prowl for some comic making and battling action, I'd love to see your work at :iconentervoidex:'s Invitational tournament! Please give it a looksee :la:
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shadowlord19 Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday. 
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TheSamuraiWarrior Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
HAPPY BIRTHDAY :hug::party::iconsuperheroglompplz:
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